...

but yeah, things can get even more screwed sometimes, even if you didn't bother to think whether they could or not.

I have to move.
My mother is in jail and I fear what may happen to her there (I hope it's "just" untill the trial).
A family friend commited suicide.
All the planifications I had for my future studies in college and career have gone to hell.
and I'm sure there's more to come.


But you know what? I do believe in karma.
Maybe it's just making me pay for being so fond of black humour.

Stolen from =cloudbabykc

1. I've come to realize that my hair:
smells

2. I've come to realize that when I talk:
I get uncomfortable if I see people actually listen to me

3. I've come to realize that I don't want:
more shit to happen

4. I've come to realize that all I really need:
is lov-MONEYYY

5. I've come to realize that I've lost:
the track again

6. I've come to realize that I hate it when:
those I know don't see that I also espect some respect from them

7. I've come to realize that if I'm drunk:
I smile with a know on my throat, and don't talk (don't really like alcohol)

8. I've come to realize that money:
is'nt that important, but it helps sometimes

9. I've come to realize that when I get old:
I'll be a creepy old woman

10. I've come to realize that I'll always be:
trying to fulfill a dream, one after the other

11. I've come to realize that I have a crush on:
life sometimes

12. I've come to realize that the last time I smiled was:
when I let the others copy my English exam

13. I've come to realize that my cell phone:
was more needed than I thought

14. I've come to realize that when I wake up in the morning:
I want to wake up somewhere else

15. I've come to realize that before I go to sleep at night I:
I start planning tomorrows conversations

16. I've come to realize that right now I am thinking about:
if I'm really as screwed as it seems

17. I've come to realize that my life:
started sucking last month

18. I've come to realize that my favorite drink is:
Tea with sugar and milk

19. I've come to realize that today I will have:
... (no idea)

20. I've come to realize that tonight I will:
Stare at MSN till I'm done with all my spam

21. I've come to realize that tomorrow I will:
Have nothing to do

22. I've come to realize that I really want to:
LEAVE THIS HOUSE AND START COLLEGE

23. I've come to realize that the person who is most likely to re-post this is:
yo mama

24. I've come to realize relationships are:
what you make of them

25. I've come to realize that love:
doesn't like me

26. I've come to realize my best guy friend:
idk

27. I've come to realize my best girl friend:
idk

28. I've come to realize food is:
The last thing I'd had right now

29: I've come to realize that this summer:
will either suck hardly or rock my socks

30. I've come to realize heartbreak:
guilty

31. I've come to realize that the person I like:
are my only true frinds

32.I've come to realize that my brother:
probably won't remember me once i'm gone

33. I've come to realize that crying:
doesn't solve ANYTHING

34. I've come to realize that death:
happens

35. I've come to realize that if I'm sick:
I don't wear pants

36. I've come to realize when I'm bored:
I'm aware of everything that happens around me

37. After answering every question I realize that:
those were some really lame answers, BUT YOU READ THEM, HA c:

...
Today I just saw my first "for older than 18" deviation in my watchlist

I never want to turn 18 again
...
or any other age for that matter.
Yesterday we went on a fishing trip which lasted until a couple hours ago to IDFK where and there was no fish YEAH HOW IMPOLITE OF THEM FISH FOR NOT SHOWING UP U8. We stayed in a lousy hut al that day and today.
I really didn't wanna go to any of this I'd rather spend the day with some of my buds. BUT I CAN'T because I have to support my mother now, for ever and ever, untill I die or something.
Today is Mothers Day but I didn't really enjoy it because of my whole family being BAAAAAAAWWWW (including myself) because of that horrible thing that happened last month.


I just don't feel comfortable being happy anymore, because I HAVE to be sad for some reason, yet I DO want to feel happy, but everytime I do this lil voice inside my head goes "what are you doing? how can you SMILE in times like this" and then I feel guilty for being happy.


Happy birthday Daniela

please tell me how to change my brush settings so that instead of showing the central spot of the brush, it show it's outline, I think I might rip off my head if I don't know anytime soon.

Thanks